i hated you bc of me [January 16th] i write to you  my best friend to say that i am sorry.  i am sorry that through our entire ordeal, i blamed you to the world and even to myself.  when in the end what i blamed you for was all my own doing.  i  made sure that i was the one who in the end came out looking like the saint.  and we were best friends.  well karma has reared its ugly head and now you have all the friends and i am all alone.  haha karma, how ironic.  how often i have used that against you to explain all your quirky attributes and in the end, it has bitten me in the butt.  i lied about so many things to you and to all the people that i love.  i wonder if there is a way to be diagnosed as a pathological liar. i think i am one.  i find myself constantly creating stories, as i tell them to people.  strange.  maybe its because i am lonely.  that though is beyond the point.  the point is that i am sorry that i blamed you and tried make it seem like you were the problem causer. i blamed you and tried to hate you with everything i had for the mere fact that in all the flaws that i blamed you for and people used against you, were the very flaws that i hid from myself and that i hate.  and i dont know if i will ever know how you really are or if how i have perceived you for all the years we have been friends is all the way i have put you in my mind to use you as an outlet to blame myself is it crazy that in the end after all i have done to hurt you, i still love you dearly and hope for nothing more than to have you back as my best friend.  but for this time to do things write.  and if not you, i want a best friend again and one that i am honest with and the entire friendship could be based on truth and love and support.  i hope i have some good karma left somewhere. post comment

God's Love and The Notebook... [November 13th] [ mood | loved ] God's Loving Promise by Krystal Meyers I love romantic movies. I think every girl loves to see a fairy tale and just dream about love. Every romantic movie seems to touch my heart in a different way. I really can't help but get sucked in by them. You know, everyday life can become so monotonous and difficult. It's so refreshing to escape, just for two hours, into a movie with an amazing and incredible story about love.There might be more to why I love these movies too. The Nov/Dec Ignite Your Faith story "True Love" reminded me how much romantic movies always have this unique way of showing God's love for each and everyone of us.My favorite romantic movie is The Notebook. There are so many amazing elements to it. My favorite scene is when Noah (Ryan Gosling) and Allie (Rachel McAdams) are in a canoe. It starts to storm. There, the two of them finally kiss. He tells her their love is still not over. This amazing scene always reminds me that love is a fight and you have to constantly be in pursuit of it. In fact, that's the whole theme of the movie. Throughout the entire movie, Noah is constantly in pursuit of the woman he loves. Who doesn't want that? It's a great picture of what love really means. The film teaches you to be selfless in love. It also shows that when you are truly in love with someone, you will do anything for that person. This so describes God's love for us. He's constantly in pursuit of us just like in The Notebook. He loves us and wants to bless us. Through all the situations of life, God will always keep his promises. No matter the heartache and trials we face, he is always there. An example of this kind of love can again be found in The Notebook. Noah made a promise to Allie that he would build her white dream house with blue shutters and a wrap-around porch. Even when they were no longer together and she had moved away, he made it his mission to build that for her. He kept his promise. What a great reminder of how even if we go astray, God will always keep his promises to us. He loves us that much! Copyright © 2006 by the author or Christianity Today International/Ignite Your Faith magazine. post comment

Friends only, add and comment [November 7th] [ mood | happy ] this blog is friends only. add and leave a comment. thanks y'all. much love!! post comment

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